Another time of the year, 23rd of January… my birthday.

I was not feeling well all week up until now. Headache, colds and stress almost killed me. And to make my day worst, I just got my period. Excuse me, uhm, but I have to tell this to justify the mixed emotions within this post.

I was so happy last Friday for being one of the top FNMers. Yet I was frustrated on Saturday because I was not able to join the APAC reunion. I miss my old team. The rock-solid relationship among the members and the never-ending kindness of previous team leader.

Sunday then, was my birthday.

I celebrated it with my boyfriend and his family. It was night time when I broke down into tears. I was depressed, telling my boyfriend that I’m already twenty six yet I haven’t accomplished a thing. I’m just a dreamer. I enumerated my plans… everything… To the point of pressuring myself. He said I was a worry-wart. I think so. But only during that night. Because it was my birthday, and I had this damn girl thing.

We had a heart to heart talk, a long yet meaningful conversation. The most serious one from all the talks we had within our 3-year and still counting relationship. We planned together. And it made me feel better.

I was in a state of confusion earlier. For an instant, I don’t know what will happen to me after resignation. But then again, he assured me that he will be there. And he reminded me that I am strong. Yes, I will go for my dreams! This is me… and I always go for what I want without hesitation.

Suddenly, I was so inspired again…

And my birthday, ended like that – with me on his loving arms plus countless kisses of reassurance…

Happy Birthday to me!!!

PS.

If you have to give me a birthday gift, I am not asking for anything material. Not a PS3, iphone 4, laptop or DSLR. Just your prayers. Pray that I become healthier, stronger and successful. Thank you…